The Fibromyalgia Survival Manuals.

I am an avid reader and believer of the nonfiction books written by Devon Starlanyl and Ginevra Lipton. Starlanyl, M.D. is a doctor who has Fibromyalgia and wrote one of the most impressive survival manuals for fibromyalgia that I have ever come across. One of her students, Ginevra Lipton, M.D., began her residency only to…

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The Alice Cooper Lesson.

I have never admitted to what I am going to write about, but my time has come. My intent is not to shock you. I hope that with my words there is someone who reads this that will know they can get through today and tomorrow and the next. This is not about strength, it…

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I am Afraid.

  Have you ever noticed the idiosyncrasies that come forth as we attempt to hide the fact that we are afraid? Life can be truly terrifying yet we make out fear to be a weakness. Human beings will ‘overcome their fear’. We have therapy just for conquering fear! But fear can be a healthy option…

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And all the Spoons were Dirty.

Christine Miserandino was in college when she came up with The Spoon Theory. She was at a diner talking with her best friend when her friend asked how it felt to have Lupus. As you will read in The Spoon Theory, Christine describes her inability to answer her friend’s question until she comes up with…

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Don’t Shoot the Messenger!

I’ve often heard that ignorance is bliss! I can’t say I agree with that. I sometimes wonder if ignorance is chronic? The jury is still out. The way the information is delivered plays a big part. How many messengers have been killed during the delivery of a message to Kings and Queens? Hence, don’t shoot the…

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The Dying vs. The Living in the Stages of Grief.

What is Grief? There is a state of loss and a reaction to loss. The grief that I want to talk about today is emotional suffering one feels when they experience or react to loss.  I think we are all familiar with the Five Stages Theory developed by the Kubler-Ross Model; denial anger bargaining depression acceptance…

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Bring Me Some Damn flowers!

The longer you are chronically ill, the less likely you are to receive a phone call, a card, or flowers. These acts of kindness are a part of your past. You continue to battle your chronic disease but as time passes you get … nothing! You will need all the mental strength you can muster.…

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You Drank the Kool-Aid!

It was about 10AM on Monday that it all began. I thought I was just having indigestion, terrible indigestion. Then indigestion turned into hot lava. I thought well I might be having a minor pancreatic flare again, but it should pass. Then it felt like someone placed a belt right below my rib cage, encircling…

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I Dream of a New Season.

Do you ever get that sick feeling in the pit of your stomach when you hear about another person still maintaining full-time employment and they have fibromyalgia? You know the feeling;  your stomach ‘falls’ and you feel inadequate, incompetent, maybe even shame? That is what I was feeling last night when my husband told me…

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My Paradigm Shift.

When my husband said this to me I honestly experienced a paradigm shift but first I must explain… I had gone from a world of hospitals, surgeries, medications, and not caring whether I lived or died to a life that I had no desire to live out. I hadn’t planned on surviving. I was sure…

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Unwrap Your Present.

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about people in my life, reflecting I suppose. Those that have come and gone. Those that I think about and miss, our relationship damaged.  I think about the people I count on, who are still with me. There are those close to me who have weathered the storm with…

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