The one thing that always bothers me about coming home from the hospital after an inpatient stay is the prompt, excessive billing with nothing to show for it. Can’t they send me home with something? How about a new baby? Maybe that’s asking too much. What about a puppy? A stuffed giraffe? Anything. There should be a parting gift! It’s the only polite thing to do. But no, there is no parting gift.
To my surprise, I was ‘gifted’ a new diagnosis after completing my recent mental health examination. (There is no return policy, I checked.) I undergo these exams every six to eight months as I suffer from clinical depression. To my surprise, after my exam, I was told that I now have a ‘generalized anxiety disorder.’ Well super. Thanks, but no thanks!
It was time to face the music, and I decided to take the medication my doctor prescribed. It is in the “histamine” family! What a relief as opiates and benzodiazepines are on the chopping block for so many of us. My gawd, this stuff is some kind of miracle in a bottle! Why haven’t I found this sooner? I no longer hyperventilate in social situations!
In all honesty, I tend to be a nervous person. I was as a child as well. But there is a big difference between nervousness and anxiety. You can be nervous about an event, but still, you attend and enjoy it. You do not get nervous just going about your daily routine. Anxiety, on the other hand, makes even your normal day feel like you want to crawl right out of your skin!
So what is the definition of generalized anxiety disorder?
Let’s look at Psychology Today for an answer;
Generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) is much more than the normal anxiety people experience day to day. It is chronic, and sufferers experience severe worry and tension, often without provocation. This disorder involves anticipating disaster, often worrying excessively about health, money, family, or work. Sometimes, though, just the thought of getting through the day brings on anxiety.
People with GAD can’t shake their concerns, even though they usually realize that much of their anxiety is unwarranted. People with GAD also seem unable to relax and often have trouble falling or staying asleep. Their worries are accompanied by physical symptoms such as trembling, twitching, muscle tension, headaches, irritability, sweating, hot flashes, and feeling lightheaded or out of breath.
Many individuals with GAD startle more easily than other people. They tend to feel tired, have trouble concentrating and may suffer from depression. GAD may involve nausea, frequent trips to the bathroom or feeling like there is a lump in the throat.
When their anxiety level is mild, people with GAD can function socially and hold down a job. Although they don’t avoid certain situations as a result of their disorder, people with GAD can have difficulty carrying out the simplest of daily activities if their anxiety is severe.
So, excessive worry to the point when even daily tasks create anxiety. Startling easily and physical symptoms; all of which I experienced. In my head, I knew I was feeling things that were irrational, but my anxiety was constantly overriding my thought process. It is challenging dealing with generalized anxiety disorder. I am so relieved I decided to get some help!
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