I Just Might Break

Today I am beginning this post with the hope of answering my own question. I believe I am struggling with coping. I don’t know if it is the heat? The barometer? My medication? Or is it the overwhelming feeling of dread waiting for my body to flare once again. It is basically a fact with…

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Dear Future Me …

May 2018 Dear Future Me, You will be reading this when you turn 70, in 2037. You will have had fibromyalgia for 40 years. Maybe you will be cured, perhaps not. Either way, I am writing so you remember your time in 2018. How you searched and fought to live your best life with this…

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Before I Tripped Over a Stone, Fridays #17

(Previous series post, Before I Tripped, #16) “You get your ass in the truck right now! You can kiss your hours’ goodbye for today, and if you ever speak to me like that again you will be off my crew faster than you can blink, do you hear me?”  “Yeah.” “What did you say?” “Yes,…

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Fibromyalgia Anxiety Warrior!

In response to the Fibromyalgia Blogger’s Directory Challenge, I present this blog post! The above has become my mantra. I suffer from severe anxiety. Anxiety is one of those co-existing conditions of fibromyalgia. If I take a moment to realize the fears that are leading to a full-blown panic attack are irrational, I can usually…

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The Chronic Patient They Know

You fight to get ‘better’ but get knocked down time and time again. Sometimes it is easier to be put in a box then to crawl out of it. But don’t stay where it is easy. Open that box again and again. This is about endurance, not speed. ~Kim

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12 Steps to Experiencing the Joy of an Ordinary Day!

After reading a fabulous post by Dr. Andrea Dinardo about enjoying an ordinary day, I thought, “when was the last time I enjoyed an ordinary day?” Not for over 20 years! Every single day I experience pain. Every single day I have to say “No” to things others wouldn’t think twice about. Every single day I strive for…

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School Shootings, “I” am Responsible.

It is Time to Replace “They” with “I.” I grew up with guns in the home. My father was the city Mayor. Therefore Chief of Police for our small town. That job came with a gun and a badge. We were told never to touch the gun, and we did not. The adults in my family hunted.…

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Before I Tripped Over a Stone, Fridays. #16

(Previous series post, Before I Tripped, #15) As a whole, ‘ghost children’ freak me out. I don’t find them scary, necessarily, but they are a bit intrusive! I think ‘ghost children’ make me sad because they are children. Not that I’ve met many… at the children’s home where I worked we had a few. It…

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What is ‘intent’ and why does it matter?

It is important to realize that some people just cannot understand what fibromyalgia is. They may want to, but it is challenging. (Remember how difficult it was for you to understand this disease in the beginning?) However, most of these people who are trying to understand are the people in your life who stand by you.…

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Will You Fight for Me?

A while back I wrote about having to “make the dreaded call” to my doctor. Things were not going so well and I knew I was getting used to my medication. It just wasn’t working anymore. So, time for new medications that come complete with side effects. The first two weeks are the worst, tapering…

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