Practice Gratefullness with Grace.

I was pondering the whole “grateful” thing. It is quite in fashion. There are grateful journals, grateful books, grateful Tuesdays… but there is a difference between being grateful and wanting more. That is what I call the ‘human drive.’ We are driven to do better, be better, live longer (while looking younger), we are “do-er’s!”

But we must find balance. For me learning to balance is a daily battle. I have a hard time stepping back and enjoying this life I’ve worked to maintain with a chronic illness. I’ve worked to make it joyful and fulfilling. Having a chronic illness can take away your sense of self-worth especially when the things you worked years for… are taken from you in a matter of months.

I was raised to be a “do-er,” now I’m simply a survivor. But I am a survivor who has found purpose. I practice being grateful for my survival; my purpose, my life, my mental health, my husband, my best friend, my family, even my warm bed.

I almost quit a few times. I had to take time to make things right with my body and soul. Then I chose to continue, and I practice being grateful. I practice finding the good in life. I also know when its time to crawl into bed, and play Wheel of Fortune on my iPad.

There is nothing wrong with having a ‘bad’ day. There is nothing wrong with saying, “Today I surrender.” Sometimes that is the healthiest option you have. Then, when the worst is over, get back up and start again.

As a Fibromyalgia Warrior, You learn to pick your battles. Don’t worry about the small stuff, and prepare only for the war. The war on surviving your disease. If this means you are not grateful every day, then that is OK. Your goal is to be OK and practice being grateful for the majority of your days. The flare days are rotten and unfair! That is just the reality we face.

Accepting the reality of what we face brings about a form of grace that we can be grateful for.

Screen Shot 2018-02-25 at 12.48.43 PM~Kim

The Shadow Boxers, Fighting Fibromyalgia, Your Personal Journal.

10 comments

  1. This is such a lovely and encouraging post. You are a survivor, Kim and definitely have a purpose, despite what your illness has thrown at you. Thank you for choosing to inspire and encourage others.
    Blessings to you, Hayley 😊❤️

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  2. Yes we get up a do and make it happen. And days day life/disease gets to us, we are grateful that we make tge mist of it when we are well. Without doing we dont move forward. But, when we are down then gratefulness brings us back into focus and takes us away frim depression, and self doubt.

    Great post beautifully articulated.

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  3. Great post Kim. I’m so grateful I “tripped over” you somehow in life. I look forward to your blog entries and am appreciative that I am not alone with these thoughts. Gratitude does seem to be the new buzz word along with mindfulness, neither I find easy to come by at this point in my disease process. But I do manage to be able to remind myself on most days that this is a process. Losing everything I have worked for and more lately with husband’s loss of his job is overwhelming me to say the least. I struggle with feeling like society has no /use place for disabled people. Bring on the gratefulness God, I’m ready!

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    1. I PROMISE you it will come! It will. This is part of the ladder that we climb, the stages of fibro. I went through my husband losing his job too… it ended up being the best thing that happened, he got a much better job. I hope the same for your hubby. And You, dear Tamara, hold on! Use your toolbox and fight with all your might! You will make it through this stage and you will get to a place where you can catch your breath… there will be good days, there will be bad days… but “this too shall pass.” xo~kim

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