Just point North!

Big changes happening here at my household. Remodeling continues, we have been living in a construction zone for almost 1 year… that would be enough to put me over the edge on a good day. Then there are job changes, insurance changes, late taxes to complete, a house to refinance and so much more!

I am about 8 seconds away from curling up in a ball and just crying. But. If I start, I won’t stop, this I am sure of… If I break right now, I will remain broken. I do not think I’ll rebound and my husband will simply shut down. He does this when I have an ‘episode’, almost as if he loses hope right along with me. No, I can not curl up in a ball and start crying.

As I’m writing this I have stacks of paperwork that I should be doing… but it seems so very overwhelming right now. So, what did I do?

I decorated a wreath for Halloween.

IMG_3512

Now is that a coping skill or what?!?! It took the anxiety away a bit, and a little helper pill assisted with the rest. My point is that I don’t have it together right now. I’m turning in circles and can’t seem to get my compass to point North. I am utterly lost!

I know that I have the power to pick how to react to this situation. I have the power to decide to just start dealing with one issue at a time. I just can’t figure out where to start and am utterly overwhelmed and afraid to start anywhere… compass still spinning.

So, I let today slide… tomorrow is a new day. We get to have days that are overwhelming and dealing with those days and not ending up on the floor in a puddle is a win in my book. I’ll take the win.

I’ll take a better look at that compass tomorrow…

IMG_3176~Kim

11 comments

  1. Kim, I’ve been where you are with being overwhelmed and not knowing where to start. I think starting with decorating your Halloween wreath was a great idea. It’s adorable! Andy Andrews, and author and speaker I just love was talking one time about not knowing where to start and he said to say to yourself, “I know I don’t know what to do next, but if I did know, what would I do?” I use this when I’m stuck – sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t…. If it doesn’t work, I just give myself permission to just not do anything and come back to it later…. Hang in there!

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Remodeling can be so much fun and stressful at the same time. I give you tons of credit. Things are looking great so far!!!!! Keep it up and maybe I will have to higher you to be my new designer when we move:)!!!

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s