Big changes happening here in my household. Remodeling continues, we have been living in a construction zone for almost 1 year… that would be enough to put me over the edge on a good day. Then there are job changes, insurance changes, late taxes to complete, a house to refinance and so much more!
I am about 8 seconds away from curling up in a ball and just crying. But. If I start, I won’t stop, this I am sure of… If I break right now, I will remain broken. I do not think I’ll rebound and my husband will simply shut down. He does this when I have an ‘episode’, almost as if he loses hope right along with me. No, I can not curl up in a ball and start crying.
As I’m writing this I have stacks of paperwork that I should be doing… but it seems so very overwhelming right now. So, what did I do?
I decorated a wreath for Halloween.
Now is that a coping skill or what?!?! It took the anxiety away a bit, and a little helper pill assisted with the rest. My point is that I don’t have it together right now. I’m turning in circles and can’t seem to get my compass to point North. I am utterly lost!
I know that I have the power to pick how to react to this situation. I have the power to decide to just start dealing with one issue at a time. I just can’t figure out where to start and am utterly overwhelmed and afraid to start anywhere… compass still spinning.
So, I let today slide… tomorrow is a new day. We get to have days that are overwhelming and dealing with those days and not ending up on the floor in a puddle is a win in my book. I’ll take the win.
I’ll take a better look at that compass tomorrow…